I've had a nasty cold that started out looking like allergies, but now has the achey flu-like symptoms. Luckily, my job allows me sick days and I have wonderful support from my team and a loving husband to take of me, so I took yesterday and today off. It's really strange to me that I don't even have to call my boss when I'm sick. I just have to call this automated system and arrange for a sub to come in. While the woman I called retired from my school only 2 years ago and taught with my teammates for years, I still can't help feeling a lot of anxiety over missing two days. I've been having bad dreams about what might be happening or what will happen when I come back.It starts when I go to sleep and I have this overwhelming fear that no one will show up and I'll get a call at 7:45 saying "Where the hell are you!?!?" I reassure myself that no, this won't happen and I drift off to sleep. Then come the dreams, last night it was about my return tomorrow. The desks are all out of order and I just can't seem to get them right. All the kids are screaming and I have four new students sitting on the floor in the corner because I couldn't get any desks ready for them. I resort to yelling and flailing my arms like a moron and everyone looks as if they're scared of me! I don't know if taking the time off will be worth it...at least I feel much better today and I don't have to worry about feeling sick at school tomorrow.
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I am pretty sick right now too. But I still have to go to work. Hopefully I will spread it around real good and everyone will know my misery.
Yeah...I've never really had the luxury of paid sick days until now. But I've also never felt worse about taking time off!
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